Thursday, May 8, 2008

UI NABUHAY ULET SILA..

hahahahahahahha!!wala lang kakatawa lang mga babaeng hindi matahimik......nagising na naman sila?at magaling sila ha?nahanap nila multiply account ko...clapclapclap!!!!huwag kang mag alala NIGHTMARE06...di kita papatulan..I WON'T STOOP LOW AT YOUR LEVEL..hahaha!!!alam mo po kasi ang mga og's ng pma mga tunay na tao sila..di kagaya niyo..nagpa plastican...sinisiraan ang isa't isa...walang pinipili..pag kaharap niyo ang isa't isa kala mo ang babit ninoy lahat..pero pag nakatalikod na..ayan na naglalabasan na ang mga baho ng isa't isa.....

huwag niyo nang idmaay ang mga kagalang kagalang na mga og's ng pma...kasi sila malayung malayo sila sa mga bulok na pag uugali ninyo...

Monday, December 10, 2007

for you boss ajah!!

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

mapalyao falls getaway...




i really love this place..basta pag umuuwi ako sa vizcaya i see to it na makakapunta ako sa lugar na ito...i know u'll fall in love with the place too...basta..iba ang pakiramdam ko pag andito ako e...

Sunday, November 25, 2007

The Loneliest thing I know...

The loneliest thing I know
As I sit recalling the past
A lost little girl all alone
Wishing for peace at last

A big smile and bright blue eyes
Was how my secret safely slept
I did good hiding the depression
Locked in my room while i wept

I was invisible to my mother
Lost because acquaintances weren't true friends
But the saddest thing I recall
Was wishing for the end

The loneliest thing I know
Used to be myself
And I probably wouldn't have made it
If my friends hadn't helped

lifted form DEPRESSION POEMS.COM

Sunday, November 18, 2007

i feel so empty inside....

i have this terrible feeling inside me. i feel so awful inside, i think i was slowly dying. i couldn't see the fun of life. it's so awful...the hollow feeling in the pit of my stomach..the feeling that is so distressful..i feel so cold,yet so warm...sad yet emotionless...i dont even know where this empty feeling comes from. it is just there. i feel like everything is going wrong and that nothing will ever go right.


I've been feeling pretty empty inside. It's almost a physical sensation. I feel like my life has no real purpose, like I'm not going to amount to anything special. I often feel as if there is something very heavy and dark balled inside my chest. It's almost as if it both physically and mentally weighs me down....Part of me feels totally lonely. Like I have nobody to share this world with. Sometimes I love that feeling, and sometimes it depresses me. I have one friend around here with whom I can share my thoughts, and she shares hiers with me. If I didn't have anyone to share thoughts with, I think my head would implode...


the world seem so so dark and unfriendly..feels like i have nothing to look forward to. the hurt deep inside me that gradually crushing my good mood...sadness that make me feel like crying..that sometimes its so hard to stop the tears....i feel so alone..i want someone to comfort me or keep me company while i go through this emptiness..talk to me...and help me melt those sadness away...


what am i searching for? what am i seeking? when will i find it?......


I am looking for contentment of the spiritual kind. Am I on the right path ?when i will i find true happiness and what makes me truly happy???


want something ?

yesterday..i received an instant message from someone i don't know who....asked me where my display image was taken for she like "daw" the water current..and i can't blame her for most of my friends are asking me where was that...i didn't answer the question of that person instead, i asked her who she is...but i just got the reply earlier this morning....and she told me that she is a girl from the past i do not want to have communication with anymore..she is a member of an org i was once belong to...


i really can smell something fishy with her intention of adding me up..i blocked them all on my yahoo mess account...i was just wondering why on earth she sign up for another account and out of the blue she'll pop up asking me where that place is?and then add me as her contact?for almost a year with no communication with them?for almost a year of being in the pedestal of shame they built for me?now that i am contented with my real friends?now that i am through and have had moved on with that pace of my life?bigla na lang sila magpaparamdam?using another nick?


WHAT ARE YOU UP TO AGAIN THIS TIME?


i know you're reading this blog....i mean viewing this everyday...


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Thursday, November 15, 2007

Love Letter for someone....

I am wondering at this very minute if you are thinking of me , if like me, you are wondering what is taking us so long to find each other . Many times I thought I finally found you only to be disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended . I get up each morning hoping, dreaming, longing to meet you. I am thinking of how we will meet, would it be as romantic as the ones I have seen in movies? Or is it possible that I have known you all my life but we have yet to realize that we are meant for each other? Oh how I wish you were here right now because you are the only one who has the answers to all my questions.

Sometimes I ask myself if I have ever really known "love". I do not have the answer to that question either but I believe that, more often than not, we will never really know what love is until we find that right person.... and since I have not found you yet, then maybe I do not really know what love is!

You just don't know how often I dream of finally knowing what it feels like to be in your arms. Even at this very moment I am imagining how you will simply sweep me off my feet! Perhaps I would be drawn to you by your smile, or your eyes, or maybe even how you manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways! I don't really know for sure but I am praying that God will help me recognize you when the right time comes.

I think of all the pain that I have gone through in the past and of how much I have cried since the day I began my search. I just wanted you to know that I find my strength in clinging onto my vision of the beautiful life ahead of me --- the life I shall spend with you. In my mind and in my heart I know that you are worth all that pain and sacrifice. After all, the tears have become a part of my life and I believe that they are slowly washing away my flaws so that I would become perfect, not perfect in its truest sense, but perfect --- for YOU!

I wonder if you've gone through so much pain as well. I wonder if you've been hurt so many times along the journey. But my dearest one, please don't ever give up because I am right here... patiently waiting for you! I assure you that when we finally find each other I would slowly heal those wounds by my love.

At night, I would look out my window and stare at the beautiful sky, hoping that somehow you are also looking up and wondering about me. I utter a silent prayer and send all my cries to the heavens above thinking that in time they would reach you. And when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and believe that you are on your way and that you are longing to see me as well. It is funny but when I finally fall asleep, it is still you that I think of, for you are always in my dreams.

It seems that, for now, that is the only place where I can hold on to you, long enough to tell you how much I love you. In my dreams you would kiss away my fears and wrap me with your arms of love. And this, all the more, makes me want to wake up and face the new day ahead with the hope that soon enough, you will no longer be a dream but a reality and once again I am assured that you are worth the wait.

And when that time comes, everything will fall into its place, just as I had imagined, just as I had thought and dreamed, just as I had believed it would be! By then, I would simply look back and smile at all that I have gone through, in spite of the pain and amidst the simple joys of life --- and I would be very thankful because they all led me to you! In the meantime, take care of yourself for me. Hold on to our dream and don't even think of letting go. Believe in your heart that we will find each other no matter what happens. God has planned the course and it is up to us to follow the directions. Don't worry, don't be afraid about getting lost, God saw to it that all the roads, no matter which one you choose to follow, lead to me.