Monday, December 10, 2007

for you boss ajah!!

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

mapalyao falls getaway...




i really love this place..basta pag umuuwi ako sa vizcaya i see to it na makakapunta ako sa lugar na ito...i know u'll fall in love with the place too...basta..iba ang pakiramdam ko pag andito ako e...

Sunday, November 25, 2007

The Loneliest thing I know...

The loneliest thing I know
As I sit recalling the past
A lost little girl all alone
Wishing for peace at last

A big smile and bright blue eyes
Was how my secret safely slept
I did good hiding the depression
Locked in my room while i wept

I was invisible to my mother
Lost because acquaintances weren't true friends
But the saddest thing I recall
Was wishing for the end

The loneliest thing I know
Used to be myself
And I probably wouldn't have made it
If my friends hadn't helped

lifted form DEPRESSION POEMS.COM

Sunday, November 18, 2007

i feel so empty inside....

i have this terrible feeling inside me. i feel so awful inside, i think i was slowly dying. i couldn't see the fun of life. it's so awful...the hollow feeling in the pit of my stomach..the feeling that is so distressful..i feel so cold,yet so warm...sad yet emotionless...i dont even know where this empty feeling comes from. it is just there. i feel like everything is going wrong and that nothing will ever go right.


I've been feeling pretty empty inside. It's almost a physical sensation. I feel like my life has no real purpose, like I'm not going to amount to anything special. I often feel as if there is something very heavy and dark balled inside my chest. It's almost as if it both physically and mentally weighs me down....Part of me feels totally lonely. Like I have nobody to share this world with. Sometimes I love that feeling, and sometimes it depresses me. I have one friend around here with whom I can share my thoughts, and she shares hiers with me. If I didn't have anyone to share thoughts with, I think my head would implode...


the world seem so so dark and unfriendly..feels like i have nothing to look forward to. the hurt deep inside me that gradually crushing my good mood...sadness that make me feel like crying..that sometimes its so hard to stop the tears....i feel so alone..i want someone to comfort me or keep me company while i go through this emptiness..talk to me...and help me melt those sadness away...


what am i searching for? what am i seeking? when will i find it?......


I am looking for contentment of the spiritual kind. Am I on the right path ?when i will i find true happiness and what makes me truly happy???


want something ?

yesterday..i received an instant message from someone i don't know who....asked me where my display image was taken for she like "daw" the water current..and i can't blame her for most of my friends are asking me where was that...i didn't answer the question of that person instead, i asked her who she is...but i just got the reply earlier this morning....and she told me that she is a girl from the past i do not want to have communication with anymore..she is a member of an org i was once belong to...


i really can smell something fishy with her intention of adding me up..i blocked them all on my yahoo mess account...i was just wondering why on earth she sign up for another account and out of the blue she'll pop up asking me where that place is?and then add me as her contact?for almost a year with no communication with them?for almost a year of being in the pedestal of shame they built for me?now that i am contented with my real friends?now that i am through and have had moved on with that pace of my life?bigla na lang sila magpaparamdam?using another nick?


WHAT ARE YOU UP TO AGAIN THIS TIME?


i know you're reading this blog....i mean viewing this everyday...


IP Address 210.23.176.## pacific.net.ph Cavite, Cavite City?


Thursday, November 15, 2007

Love Letter for someone....

I am wondering at this very minute if you are thinking of me , if like me, you are wondering what is taking us so long to find each other . Many times I thought I finally found you only to be disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended . I get up each morning hoping, dreaming, longing to meet you. I am thinking of how we will meet, would it be as romantic as the ones I have seen in movies? Or is it possible that I have known you all my life but we have yet to realize that we are meant for each other? Oh how I wish you were here right now because you are the only one who has the answers to all my questions.

Sometimes I ask myself if I have ever really known "love". I do not have the answer to that question either but I believe that, more often than not, we will never really know what love is until we find that right person.... and since I have not found you yet, then maybe I do not really know what love is!

You just don't know how often I dream of finally knowing what it feels like to be in your arms. Even at this very moment I am imagining how you will simply sweep me off my feet! Perhaps I would be drawn to you by your smile, or your eyes, or maybe even how you manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways! I don't really know for sure but I am praying that God will help me recognize you when the right time comes.

I think of all the pain that I have gone through in the past and of how much I have cried since the day I began my search. I just wanted you to know that I find my strength in clinging onto my vision of the beautiful life ahead of me --- the life I shall spend with you. In my mind and in my heart I know that you are worth all that pain and sacrifice. After all, the tears have become a part of my life and I believe that they are slowly washing away my flaws so that I would become perfect, not perfect in its truest sense, but perfect --- for YOU!

I wonder if you've gone through so much pain as well. I wonder if you've been hurt so many times along the journey. But my dearest one, please don't ever give up because I am right here... patiently waiting for you! I assure you that when we finally find each other I would slowly heal those wounds by my love.

At night, I would look out my window and stare at the beautiful sky, hoping that somehow you are also looking up and wondering about me. I utter a silent prayer and send all my cries to the heavens above thinking that in time they would reach you. And when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and believe that you are on your way and that you are longing to see me as well. It is funny but when I finally fall asleep, it is still you that I think of, for you are always in my dreams.

It seems that, for now, that is the only place where I can hold on to you, long enough to tell you how much I love you. In my dreams you would kiss away my fears and wrap me with your arms of love. And this, all the more, makes me want to wake up and face the new day ahead with the hope that soon enough, you will no longer be a dream but a reality and once again I am assured that you are worth the wait.

And when that time comes, everything will fall into its place, just as I had imagined, just as I had thought and dreamed, just as I had believed it would be! By then, I would simply look back and smile at all that I have gone through, in spite of the pain and amidst the simple joys of life --- and I would be very thankful because they all led me to you! In the meantime, take care of yourself for me. Hold on to our dream and don't even think of letting go. Believe in your heart that we will find each other no matter what happens. God has planned the course and it is up to us to follow the directions. Don't worry, don't be afraid about getting lost, God saw to it that all the roads, no matter which one you choose to follow, lead to me.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

EDUCATED BUT UNLEARNED LADIES

hmmm....everytime i open my page....multipy....friendster..and this blog i always have to see who viewed me....and i was shocked when i saw this GIRL FROM DOWN SOUTH that she viewed me....hmmmmm...siguro may intriga na naman or kuwentong gingagawa nila na ako ang KONTRABIDA....hmmmm.....you know what girls.....i will tell you over and over again...I WON'T STOOP LOW AT YOUR LEVEL.......hmmmm....alam ko na mas mataas pinga aralan nyo kesa sa akin....but what you're acting is far beyond an EDUCATED PERSON....DAIG NYO PA ANG ISANG BULAKLAK NA MAGNDANG TINGNAN PERO PAG NILAPITAN NANGANGALINGASAW ANG TAGLAY NA KABAHUAN..ALAM NYO BA KUNG ANO UNG BULAKLAK NA YUN?I'VE KEPT MY SILENCE FOR ALMOST A YEAR NOW....I NEVER TRIED TO EXPLAIN MY SIDE KASI NAHUSGAHAN NYO NA AKO....ANO PA MAGAGAWA NG PALIWANAG KO DI BA?IISIPIN LANG NG IBA NAGMAMALINIS AKO...ADVISE KO LANG HA?GAWIN NYONG KAPANIPANIWALA ANG ROLE KO SA KWENTONG GAGAWIN NINYO...AND SPECIALLY...HUWAG NYO IDAMAY ANG MGA TAONG NANINIWALA SA AKIN....MGA TAONG SILANG MGA TUNAY NA KAIBIGAN....DON'T PRETEND TO BE SOMEONE LIKE THEIR "KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOUR"...DON'T PRETEND TO BE AN ANGEL FOR YOU ARE NOT....MAGPAKATOTOO KAYO..

YOU'RE DEGRADING THE ORAGNIZATION YOU BELONG TO GIRLS....NAKAKAHIYA.....MGA OFFICERS AND FUTURE OFFICERS PA AMNDIN MGA PARTNERS NYO...BE A REAL EDUCATED ONE..WAG KAYONG MAGING EDUKADANG WALANG PINAG-ARALAN.......

Friday, November 9, 2007

still in the world of BLUE

It feels sad being alone. I think sad is an understatement...when it becomes so grave, the sadness turns into loneliness...and if there's something lonelier than the word Lonely, that's the perfect word to describe the feeling. Some say that being alone doesn't necessarily mean you're also lonely. It's relative. I think. The more friends I gain, the more I feel alone. It's so cold and having someone means no more coldness, no more being alone, no more gloomy days...It's different when you have someone who will always be with you no matter how hideous and ugly you are, no matter how dumb and stupid your ways are, no matter how corny your jokes are. It's really different...friends wouldn't suffice this time. Being alone is a sad, shady and dark state to be at. Especially when you see people happy together, you start to compare yourself to them. How content and happy they are, and how sad, lost and miserable you are. You would even reach to a point of pretending that you're happy...and the only way for you to escape the shame is just be ALONE. Sometimes I would just hide and conceal myself...for people not to see me alone. Self denial comes in...Fighting the sad truth of solitude is like accepting the fact that no matter how you struggle for something, you'll still end up losing...

Hearing love songs only give you sad memories of the past...not because of anything, but for the sole reason of you failing...Failing to succeed in a relationship and because of that failure, up until now, you're alone...still ALONE. A bitter dose of this so called reality.



I miss falling in love. I miss saying I love you to someone...I miss the feeling of missing someone...Of loving someone...being hurt not because I'm sad...being disappointed not because I am alone...I miss FEELING. It's just so unfair…life is really unfair.



Sheesh…This is too much.

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

long vacation

october 31....


10:30 am....we were in a bus bound for region 2....yiiih!!!!i was soo excited to reach home!!!!haaayz!!!!i miss my "pamangkins" and my cousins....my friends way back elementary and high school....and the cool fresh air.....


the usual 8 hour trip to vizcaya took us almost 10 hours because of the traffic at plaridel, bulacan and cabanatuan city, nueva ecija....haaay...kapagod!!!


november 1....


i woke up at 6am and went straight home....i slept over at ate gay's(ajah's elder sister)house for we reached the barrio already 2 in the morning and our compound was too dark..they are all fast asleep....hmmm..takot ako maglakad papasok sa amin kasi may multo dun e...nyahahah!!!true!!may multo dun...


i went straight to antie cora's house to see my newest pamangkin to joana..my 19 year old cousin(inunahan na ako...)..hmm the baby was soo cute!!!!grabe!!!buti na lang nagmana sa lahi anmin..maganda!!!nyahaha!!!


around 11 in the morning i went to bayombong with ate jang(my cousin-in-law)..we fetched my little sister in ate jang's house where she lives..and went staright to the cemetery to visit my uncle's tomb...


at 4pm we went back to solano....i visited my friends and gee!!!i saw my first love!!!!hmmm....no more jittery feelings!!swear!!!i miled at him and i caught him staring at me the way he used to...na para bang sinasabi nya na namimiss na ako!!!waaah!!!!assuming!!!!


at 6pm i met with my friend dhex...as usual...we ate lomi at the childrens park..


at 8pm i went home...


november 2..


hmmm.....grabeh!!!!!general cleaning!!!!prax(my little sis) and i cleaned the house....remove all unwanted things...dust...cobwebs...whew!!!hirap talaga pag lalaki lang nakatira sa bahay e...


at 3pm..we went to solano cemetery to visit my father's, aunt's and grandma's tomb....


at 5..prax went to straight home....and i as usual went to my friend, ate lai's place..unfortunately she wasn't there...i've waited till 6 and decided to go home...when i was waiting for a tricycle..tette(my first bf's nick) who was ate lai's neighbor went outside...smiled at me and remarked"ui!!naka red!!baka sumabog tayo..soulmate talag tayo!!", heheheh...i smiled....and i think i blushed...kasi lumabas ung asawa nya and narinig ung sinabi ni tette..


november 3...aja and her family and i went to mapalyao falls...yiiiiiiih!!i missed that place!!!as in!!!wow!!!!ang ganda!!!here are the pics....



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sa may bato yan....sa tinatalunan namin...


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this one was taken from the hanging bridge..may hanging bridge po jan na dalawa....


hmmm..ilan lang yan....i fell inlove with the place the first time i went there when i was in 2nd year high school... november 4...went to market and bought some veggies for our stocks here.. at 9:45...was in a baliwag bus bound for sampaloc... november 5...at 5am...arrived at apartment.....back to the city again!!!!

Monday, October 29, 2007

happy birthday!!!

yesterday was his birthday....the man who used to make me smile with no reasons at all....the man who gave me the sweetest smile i've ever seen....tha man who used to be my life...


just sad that i can't even greet him on his special day.....so i just whispered my birthday wides for hin through Our God Almighty....that his wishes be granted and that may He guide him through his journey...that may He give him enough strength to face all the challenges he will be going through...


kahit di mo to mabasa...i am wishing you all the best taht you deserve..


happy,happy,happy birthday to you!!!!

a poem from him






the more i wanted to move on..
is the more i find it hard to get through.......


i long to see your face again....
to look into your eyes and see.......
the love that is meant for me.......


i've been pretending i am ok......
because i want to hide from the feeling.......
instead i find myself in tears and in deep pain....


i feel so alone and lonely............


and emptiness lingers in my heart........
i know our hearts still wanted to hold on.........
to the love we have......


i dont know how and i dont know when.....
or if this will ever end..........


letting you go is too painful for me........
i know you're hurt too and i can see it.............
in your eyes............


i did'nt want this to end..........
someday hapiness will find its way to our hearts..........
when all that our heart could wish for will be given in God's perfect time..........
i still think of you as often as i breathe..........
thank you for the gift of love..........


i treasure you in my heart........
and there you will be kept.........
where nobody can ever replace you........


 


*this poem is not originally mine...i was just the editor!!eheheh...this is a poem gave to me by my first love....the guy who hurt me the most but i know he loved me the most....

Saturday, October 27, 2007

love fades

We often don't feel
Love each and every day
Just the same it's there
And will never fade away

Just like the ocean tide
Coming in and going out
At times our love's so strong
Other times is seldom felt

In those times of wondering
When love is placed in doubt
We must only remember
Our love has not run out

God in all His splendour
Knows just how we feel
He knows true love goes deeper
Than our feelings that seem real

So don't be depending
On feelings everyday
Love is always there

But feelings fade away.

Friday, October 26, 2007

My Ideal Man

hmmm..xempre namn ayaw ko namng tumandang dalaga no?


kahit namn sino may ideal partner di ba?hmm..let me share mine...




  • maginoo pero medyo bastos...


  • lalaking kaya akong mahalin sa kung sino at kung ano ako


  • mentally healthy


  • spiritually healthy


  • physically fit


  • malakas!!para kaya nya akong buhatin pag ako'y lasing...


  • ung kayang makipagsabayan sa akin sa alak!!nyahahah!!!


  • marunong lumangoy..kasi baka pag lumubog ang barkong sasakyan namin ako pa ang magliligtas sa kanya...


  • ung kayang umakyat ng buko para sa akin..i love it ko kasi ang buko e..


  • may abs!!!!hmmm..yummmy un e..


  • malambot ang lips..


  • maganda ang smile....


  • macho!!!as in...ung lalaking tingnan..


  • malapad ang shoulders...hmmm....


  • athletic...


  • ung mahilig umakyat ng bundok kasi bulubundukin ang sa amin...


  • syempre iyong kaya niya akog buahyin no?


  • at ang pinaka!!!!!ung......healthy ang lungs....para di xa kulangin ng hangin.....nyahahah!!!!uuuy seryoso yan!!!!

toinks!!!!!awan kabulatawan lang datoy kadi!!!!heheheheh....

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Full house theme song




hmmm...brings back good old full house days...cramming to go home when 5pm strikes on the clock!!!hehhehe...i so love this koreanovela..kahit nung nireplay na pinanood ko ulit..

bakit ikaw?di mo ba inabangan to?

Saturday, October 6, 2007

pag-ibig na naman.....


sadyang may mga lalaking di marunong manloko. .



at sadyang may mga lalaking napakagaling manloko..


may mga babaing ayaw paloko..


at may mga babaing sadyang kay daling maloko...


ano nga ba talaga?..


kay hirap pigilan ng puso.


kay hirap mapasubo.



kung sino pang manloloko, sya pang panalo...


kawawa na naman ang mga babaing naloloko. ..


napakahirap ng ganito..di mo alam kung papano..


talagang kaylabo..


eto si mr gud guy,ayaw ata ni inday,ano pang kailangang ipakita ni mr gudguy..


para ay bigyang pagkakataon ni ms.inday?


ang gulo ng mundo..


an labo minsan ng disenyo.kay hirap matanto..


kung sino para kay sino..


kay daming gud guys minsan nabibigo..


tuloy minsan natututong...

Manloko pero wag maman sana..


di ko kakayanin to'di kasi tayo manloloko..


hayaan na natin sila..


dun sila masaya, eh, di bahala dan ah!

kastan tumitt gamin!

Thursday, October 4, 2007

pasko na naman...

"pasko na sinta ko, hanap hanap kita...bakit nagtatampo, nilisan ako...kung mawawala ka..sa piling ko sinta, paano ang paskong?alay ko sa iyo..."
haaay...ilang araw na lang pasko na naman...

magpapasko na naman akong malamig...

walang kayakap..

walang ka iloveyou wlaang kabatian ng maligayang pasko...
walang kapalitan ng regalo...
haaaay..buhay..parang kailan lang..
noong nakaraang pasko..ang saya saya ko..
tapos ngayon,..
kabaligtaran namn..
wala talagang permanente sa mundo kundi pagbabago no?

ano nga ba mayroon noong nakaraan disyembre?

December last year, when i have had this whirlwind romance.
a bliss feeling..
December last year when i felt the real happiness i've been looking for after two years of imprisonment in depression and bitterness.
He brought me up from the deep shallow..
from the world of blue.
December last year when i heard the words a lady in love love to hear from his man.
December last year when i felt the tenderness of his kisses,
the warmth of his hugs and the love i've been longing for.
December last year when i became the strongest, the toughest one,
coz it was December last year when i had these strong arms around me,
arms always there to hug me and comfort me.
a man who says "don't worry love, will always be here beside you."
December last year when he introduced me to his family..
December last year when i am really in love again.

and in few months time...
Disyembre na naman...

will i have the same faith?
the same happiness i have had December last year?
"
four calling birds!!!three french hens!!two turtle doves and a partridge in a pear tree!!!"

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Downside of Desperate Housewives...

Desperate Housewives' Teri Hatcher SLURS Filipinos
Posted by RoMa on Oct 2, '07 4:55 AM for everyone
In the Premiere of Desperate Housewives Teri Hatcher made a remark about Filipinos - doctors/nurses. She was talking to her doctor and then she said "Okay, before we go any further, can I check those diplomas? 'Coz I would just like to make sure they are not from some med school in the Philippines."------Dear Kababayan and Allies:I heard through the grapevine about a remark made on an episode of "Desperate Housewives" last night. The scene entailed Teri Hatcher's character (Susan) at a hospital, being told by her gynecologist that she might be hitting menopause. Susan replied, "Can I just check those diplomas because I just want to make sure that they are not from some med school in the Philippines." If you go to abc.com, you watch the full episode and witness the scene at about 18:50 minutes into the episode.This type of derogatory remark is not only unnecessary and hurtful, but is also unfounded, considering the presence of Filipinos and Filipino Americans in the health care industry. Filipinos are the second largest immigrant population in the United States, with many entering the U.S. and passing their U.S. licensing boards as doctors, nurses, and medical technicians. In fact, the Philippines produces more U.S. nurses than any other country in the world. So, to belittle the education, experience, or value of Filipino Americans in health care is disrespectful and plain and simply ignorant.As Filipino Americans, we need to band together to ensure that this type of hateful message is not allowed to continue on our television and radio airwaves. Given the recent amounts of media attention that has been given to Michael Richards (against African Americans), Isaiah Washington (against gays), and Rosie O'Donnell (against Asian/ Chinese Americans), it is ridiculous that this type of hateful speech made it through various screenwriters, the show's producers, the show's actors, and ABC itself. Yet, this isn't the first time that negative remarks have been made about the Philippines or Filipinos in the past. In recent years, we've heard one too many "dogeater" comments by "comedian" Joan Rivers on the red carpet or in her standup act, and I believe that it is about time that we stand up for ourselves, so that this type of hateful speech never happens again.Please join me in expressing your concern, disappointment, and/or disgust to the producers of ABC.com. You can sign the petition at http://www.petitiononline.com/FilABC/ or you can reach them directly at abc7@abc.com.And please feel free to forward this widely to other Filipinos/Filipino Americans/ Asian Americans/ and other allies.Sincerely,Kevin Nadal,Filipino Performance Artist/ Activistknadal@gmail.com


OCTOBER LAST YEAR..

first day of October, twas rainy monday..i was reading John Grisham's THE CLIENT but i can't concentrate on waht i was reading. there are lots of memoirs that kept ringing on my mind. i turned on the television set and just kept on switching channels..still those memories keep on coming...i grabbed my pen and paper and jot down everything in my mind.
October, the second BER months and the real start of low temperature. time for school breaks and have some fun..
'twas October last year when the super typhoon MILENYO hit the country. left thousands homeless due to the heavy rain that caused landslides in the BICOL REGION, VISAYAS, METRO MANILA, TAGALOG REGIONS and some part in NORTHERN LUZON. Cavite was one of the worst hit by the typhoon that the administrator cancelled classes in all scholl levels including the prestigious police academy in that place..'twas October last year when i had this memorable moment spent with my "one-and-only" back then. the moment i was the happiest despite the strong typhoon.
'twas also the same month when we broke up and brought me to tears..but it was also that time when i met this someone, a very special friend that brightens up my day... a man who brought me up from deep shallow...from the world of blue...the man behind all the smiles despite all the hurts and pains caused by intrigues and insults and nasty rumors about me by the an org i was once belong to.. the man who taught me to be strong and to believe in myself..
'twas also the same month when my pretty boss ajah landed a job as EDI SUPPORT at GXS in Makati...;twas October last year when Lalaine ran away from us with a cash and some 2nd hand mobile units costing around 60,000 pesos..and it was October last year when ajah lost her first love..her boyfriend for 2years..
in a month's time many died..many cried..we've lost a lot..i think jinx came in the way on OCTOBER 2006..
i hope and pray that what happened October last year won't happen again...

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

KOTONG COPS..

September 24, 8pm, rainy and on a jeepney bound for Lagro loob along Sto. Domingo Church, Quezon Avenue, when a young policeman ctopped the jeep i am in and got the driver's liscense. the offense? "WRONG ROUTE.." "Lagro-Delta ka lang ha?Bakit andito ka na?Sto. Domingo pa lang to, punong puno ka pa.Akin lisensya mo, the cop said. the driver tried to explain that his route is Quiapo-Lagro and showed the cop his permit. but the cop insisted to get the liscense of the driver. the driver then asked for an apology to us, (his passengers), then he got out of the jeep to talk to the cops who parked their mobile a hundred meter away from us. then in a quarter minute the driver came back scratching his nape, "Lecheng mga pulis mga yan o, tingin ko sa kanila mga demonyo na e. sinabi namang Quiapo-Lagro ang ruta ko, pinakita ko na nga ang permit ko ayaw pa ring amniwala. binibigyan ko ng 200 ayaw kunin.binigyan ko ng 400 kinuha.leche, 150 lang ung dapat multa ko dun e. buti pa mmda pangkape lang ok na", the driver remarked as he got up the jeep.i lerned from the driver that earlier that day couple of policemen "hold-up" (drivers refers to call the cops as holdupper) him again for 300pesos in an offense he doesn't know.

it's sad..really sad..knowing that the cop is from the prestigious academy..i saw the bullring wearing around his middle finger..i saw it when he got the driver's liscense...i was seating beside the driver...the young cop is good looking...and a fafalicious!!!hehehe.

wala na bang matinong public officer ngayon?lahat na lang dawit na sa katiwalian..pati ba namn mga kawawang drivers kokotangan pa?ano na ba nagyayari sa bansa natin?kailan tayo uunlad?

PUBLIC SAFETY OFFICER NGA BA DAPAT ANG ITAWAG SA INYO?ANO NGA BA ULIT UNG TINAPOS NYO SA ACADEMY NA ANG TAONG BAYAN ANG NAGBABAYAD NG BUWIS PARA MAKATAPOS KAYO SA PRESTIHIYOSONG INSTITUTION? DI BA BACHELOR OF SCIENCE IN PUBLIC SAFETY?

WHERE'S THE HONOR? THE DISCIPLINE AND THE INTEGRITY THE ACADEMY TAUGHT YOU?

oooops!!ang tamaan mabubukulan!!!

QC 26......

Saturday, September 29, 2007

NETWORK WARS....

i am a GMA 7 baby...why?

when i was just a little kid,the only channel our tv had was gma where you belong...the logo is still the rainbow where in a silver statue spread his arms wide then the rainbow comes out...our neighbors too only watched hma shows then..

and now..i confess i still do prefer watched kapuso shows on daytime and on QTV rather than on kapamilya..but kapamilya shows invade the television set on primetime..

NETWORK WAR is really an issue here. comparing one's rating to another..claiming the no.1 slot....the best station....but who really is the NUMBER 1?

SWITCHING OF STARS sometimes invade the news..like when ANGEL LOCSIN moved to kapamilya...we all know that Angel is a product of the kapuso network...made her the star she is now....Angel's decision to move to the kapamilya network really did brought a month long headline in showbusiness...anjan ung sinabihan siyang walang utang na loob..na nagpalaglag..etc..etc....then the kapamilya now claims that Angel Locsin really started on them..on ANG TV..dun daw siya nagsimula...but what is new?ganun namn sila talaga di ba?when an artist is already a star..a star made by the other network,they'll try to get them as their talent.offering them 3times the other network can give them..we all know that kapamilya is richer than the kapuso network....then pag talent na nia ang isang artista na pinasikat ng kabila,sasabihin na nilang WELCOME BACK!!!dahil dun namn daw talag sila nagsimula..

dun sila nagsimula..di sumikat...pumasok sa kabila at siyay sumikat...nang siya'y sikat na bumalik sa kanyang pinagmulan sa mas mataas na bayad...i can't blame them for switching mother networks..they just want a "greener pasture"..sa hirap ba anmn ng buhay ngayon di ba?
pero is it ethical to leave the company who made you who you are now for a bigger money?

where's the LOYALTY?

(ahurm!!!bakit LOYALTY NA?AKALA KO NETWORK WAR ITO?)

goin back to the real topic....the two major networks in our country kept on claiming that they are the number one and the best tv station...

who do you think is the real one?

the KAPUSO or the KAPAMILYA?

blog assault...

i was browsing the net for typhoon wraths when it directs me to a multiply blog page..i got curiused and opened it..i saw the entries there...this girl is a genius blogger..but what caught my attention was her MOVIE REVIEW:I'VE FALLEN FOR YOU..a movie which stars KIM CHIU AND GERALD ANDERSON..(http://crazyadventure.wordpress.com/2007/09/26/movie-review-ive-fallen-for-you/)that the blog's url..please do check on it..

the author ms.frances marie doplon is an effective critic...she created a chaos on that simple movie review on her blog...KIMERALD(derived from KIM-GERALD) kept on posting nasty comments on that blog..some wants her to delete it...some even said that gma 7 bribe her..hellar!!!it ws just a movie review..

pati ba namn sa blog may network war?

and then there's this commentator...post many comments using different names..but only one email add and IP add..whoah!!baliw na ata ang KIMERALD?!!!

enewiz..what's the purpose of this blog?hmmm..ewan!!!ala lang kasi ako maisip e..but if this blog wil create havoc like the one that ms.doplon created..i will be glad to read you comments guys..

harharharahar!!!!

peace on BLOG COMMUNITY!!!PEACE BLOGGERS!!!!

Still hurting????or just missess him?



i always had this dream at night, i was walking down a steepy road. wandering where th eroad will take me.wandering where am i and what i was doin' there.i continued the journey hoping for someone or some place i am familiar with. then suddenly, the steepy road became a paradise. a place where the most bautiful flowers grew, in all sizes and colors with butterflies flying all over the palce. and in the middle of the paradise, i saw the trees. the trees i used to glance at everytime i passed by when i go home in province. i wonder why it was there?those trees are standing in the middle of a ricefield in Brgy. Lactawan, Solano Nueva Vizcaya. a place i passed by before i reached ours. in my dream, i saw my man standing under those trees. i rushed to him, hugged him tight as if i don't want to let him go, and kissed him. as always, he kissed me on my forehead, then on my cheeks, then on my lips. i can feel the warmth, the tenderness and the love he used to give me. the promise he gave me still brought joy to me. i've longed for his hug, for his kiss, for his voice and for his smile i used to love. the sweetest smile i've ever seen and ever been given to me. i was so bliss. never have imagined to be back on his arms once again..and always wishing to be with him forever. tears fell from his eyes as he whispered his love for me..whispering sweet nothings with him is still the best things i've always cherished. he hugged me tight as if it was the only thing to do. then my tears fell when he told me he's sorry. and slowly he fades away..i cried out his name..i felt that i will never see him again..




then i woke up and can never go back to sleep again. why is he still on my dreams..the kisses, the hugs, the seetnothings...i thought we're really in a paradise....but then.it was just a dream...a dream still kept on coming back...am i still hurting?or am i missing him a lot?




the trees in the middle is the one i mentioned above...i never misses to glance at those trees in the middle...it's as if telling me that in the middle of wilderness there is someone bigger or stronger you can lean upon.....

Thursday, September 27, 2007

The Stranger Smiled Back..


“Charles, I have loved you more than you ever know.”

“Same here Lizzy. I love you more than anybody else and I will love nobody but you. Ibibigay ko lahat ng kaya ko Lizzy, mapaligaya lamang kita.”

“Salamat Charles. Napakabuti mo sa akin.”

“Sweetheart, I told you, I love you very, very, very much!!!”

“I’m sorry Charles….but,….”

“But what Lizzy? What are you up to?”

“Let’s….braek up Charles. Napakatagal ng tatlong taong pagkakawalay natin sa isa’t isa. Many things have changed.”

“Lizzy sweetie, tell me you’re just kidding.”

“No Charles.. I hat to say this.. but,.. I don’t love you anymore… ”

“Sweetie I came home to fulfill my promise.. to marry you.”

“I can’t marry you Charles…”

“Why? What’s wrong?”

“Sorry Charles.. I really am.. I don’t love you anymore…”

“Tell me you’re kidding!! You’ve promised me that we’ll grow old together sweetie.. But why now?”

“Charles I have found another love when you’re away.. I have found true happiness.. and I’m sorry.. we really had to end this way.. It’s better for us to be just friends.”

“Give me enough reason.. Enough reason for me not to marry you.”

“I’m sorry… I really am…I am two months pregnant…with Mike’s baby.”

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a month later…..

“Is this seat beside you taken?”

“No,” I answered without giving a glance at the stranger.

“Would you mind to transfer here? I feel dizzy when I don’t sit beside the window. Please?”

“Okay..” I answered and do her plea. And this time I glance at her.

“oh thank you! How nice of you.” The stranger with a sweet smile painted on her lips.

I am on a bus bound for Nueva Vizcaya to attend to my cousin’s wedding… and to mend a broken heart. My hometown would be the best place for me. Fresh air, quiet and specially be with my family.

Three years of sacrifice in a foreign land for a brighter future… For my would be family with Lizzy. Si Lizzy na pinag-alayan ko ng buong pagmamahal.. I thought she loves me the way or more than I did. Lahat ng pagmamahal, pagtitiwala..ibinigay ko ang lahat lahat sa kanya… “Oh Lizzy!! Where’s your promise? Iba na talga ang mundo ang takbo ng mundo ngayon. Babae na ang nang iiwan…ang nananakit ng damdamin.. what hurts me more is that the father of the kid…of all people!!! Bakit kay Mike pa? mike who has been my bestfriend since freshman high school?”

“Here’s my hanky…” said the stranger.. Oh God!! I was crying?!!

“Problem?”, she asked..again with that sweet smile. The sweetest smile I’ve ever seen!!

“Sort of.. Thanks for this!”, I answered referring to her hanky.

“Walang anuman. Care to share me what’s bothering you?”

“Nope. I’m sorry I can’t. it’s to personal to talk about it with a stranger like you.”

“hmmm.. let me guess..heart problem?” I didn’t answer. I closed my eyes and pretended to sleep… to let her know that I am not interested to talk o her. TSISMOSA!!

“hindi ka namn iiyak kung hindi mabigat ang dinadadala mo.. if it’s because of a girl..she’s very lucky..” patuloy niya habang kinukukot ang baong tsitsirya. “Maybe she’s very special to you. Di ka naman iiyak kung hindi di ba?” at the corner of my eye,I saw her staring at me. Grabe talaga ang pagka chismosa ng babaeng ito!

“cge lang iyak ka lang. wag kang mahiya sa akin. Normal lang ang pag iyak.. I cried a lot too..this past few weeks..my boyfriend for three years broke up with me coz of another girl..ang masama nabuntis nya ang girl na un…who happens to be his bestfriend’s girl..imagine that?!”..she paused..

I glance at her..the story seems familiar…

“I almost died..”she continued..”I want to kill them both… I gave him my love.. I trusted him..all my life I’ve never been betrayed..and I never thought that the man I love the most was the first one to betray me.. I love him so much that I am willing to give him everything…” she paused and still no answer from me.

“it’s been a month since I heard that news from him. The first week was really so unbearable. Gusto ko ng mamatay non.. di ko alam kung paano mabubuhay ng wala sya sa piling ko. I cried…and cried..and really crieda lot…”..

“But then I come to realize that maybe were not meant to be. That I don’t deserve him.. that a better one was there for me..”

She paused…maybe she thought I am already asleep. But every word from her sinks in me. Why? We have the same faith! My girl was bearing my best friend’s baby!!.. this petite stranger beside me.. with the sweetest smile. Angelic face. Looks so vulnerable just accepted hr faith as easy as that..so why can’t i?

“He’s my everything.. siya ang buhay ko… pero dati yun. Tinuring ko na lang na isa syang bangungot. I don’t want to live my life with the past. I have to move on.. I have to live my life without him…”,she paused..

“Hmmm..alam ko nakikinig ka. Don’t ruin your life. If you two are really meant for each other, destiny will find it’s way in bringing you two back in each other’s arms again..”

I was really amazed by this petite stranger. How could she talk about those things with stranger like me?.. tsismosa lang ba talaga ito o madaldal lang talaga?

“Life doesn’t end where heartaches begin.. that’s what I’ve learned. It is again the beginning you know? Simula ng panibagong buhay.. panibagong pag-asa. I’ve learned a lot from my past relationship. Though it really hurts, we have to forgive and forget. It is where we can find true happiness and most specially have faith in God. He knows everything. He’ll never send you into situation alone. He’s just up there waiting for you to call.. paraan lamang Nya siguro yanpara maalala mo Siya..”

I opened my eyes and look at the stranger. Again she smiled. Kakaiba talaga siya sa mga babaeng nakilala ko. She really talks a lot.. but with sense.

“Yeah you’re right!! I can’t remember when was the last time I talked to Him.” Pag amin ko..

“Bayombong Junction na!!!tayo na po mga bababa jan!!”sigaw ng konduktor.

“Thanks for listening. Everything happens for a reason. Have faith in God. In Him we can find real happiness. Just trust Him okay? He’s waiting for your call. See you some other time, I hope!!!and sana when that time comes,magsalita ka na din ha? Bye.. good luck!!”she waved goodbye and smile at me again!

“whoah!! Kakaiba talag ang babaeng un!! Nobody talked to me that way. Even my mom never talked to me the way she did!!”

“uh-oh!mama para po!!” I shout and in a few second, the bus stopped. I rode in a tricycle and drove back to junction where the stranger stopped.. but she’s nowhere to be found! I forgot to ask her name. how ungentlemanly of me! And then I remembered the hanky she gave me.. it was still on my pocket.. and then I went home..

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“Charles halika na!!kailangan mong sumama ngayon. Final rehearsals na pare. Marie’s best friend arrived from Nueva Ecija yesterday. I’m sure you’ll like her.. come on cuz!!” yaya ng pinsan kong c Chester.

“wla pa ako sa mood pare. Don’t worry , I already know what to do for tomorrow.” I answered.

“Tol my problema ba? Let’s talk about it later okay? I’m on rush at the moment..”

“thanks tol! But I’m okay! It’s just about the stranger on the bus yesterday. I can’t get rid of her in my mind..”

“ahumm!!! is she pretty?.” he asked with a grin..

“yeah! A real beauty..and mind you! She has the sweetest smile I’ve ever seen..”

“uh-oh! Finally cousin! I think it’s a good start. Okay I have to go now. Bye!!”

“ge ingat and please do extend my regards to Marie…”

“yep I will!!”

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wedding day…

“cous, you know what? Lorraine , I think is perfect for you.”

Lorraine who?”

“Marie’s best friend and maid of honor. I’m sure you two will going to make a perfect pair!!”

“stop playing cupid tol!!”

“why what’s wrong? You’re both single.. oh! HERE THEY ARE!! Come on I’ll introduce you to her.”

“Later… I’ll introduce myself to her later.come on! The ceremony’s about to begin.” I answered. Honestly, I am not interested to meet that Lorraine.

A few minutes later, wedding march is on the air. The sweet soulful voice of the wedding singer made me shiver. I can’t understand why. Maybe I am just hallucinating.. I thought I saw the stranger at the entourage.

“cous, this is it! Finally, I will tie the knot with the woman I love the most. I hope you’ll be the next, soon!”. Chester said as he waits for his bride… I just smiled at him.

“that’s Lorraine..” he said referring to the bride’s maid.

I glanced at the entourage and I was shocked! I thought I ws just hallucinating a while ago..

Lorraine…the maid of honor..Marie’s best friend… and the stranger with a sweet smile.. oh! God! I can’t believe it! I told myself…

I never thought that our paths will cross again. Never thought that she’s the bride’s maid from Nueva Ecija..

As she walked down the aisle, I smiled at her.. hoping to see the sweetest smile I’ve ever seen…

……………………..and the stranger smiled back!!!.......................

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